FILL YOUR CUP

"fill your cup"


fill your cup, drink it slow
tip it back, let it flow,
sit,
and wallow,
in your throat
taste the emptiness
the self-righteousness
what should be your own contempt
grip your glass, i know it's hard
you can't stand the taste
it's bitter-sweet that you resent
unfortunate what it represents
bring forth the end of so many things
i took down the walls you kept me in
who knew opening up would be a sin
now it's over, the cup's bone dry
take from it, whatever you like
this is the end and it feels right
i refuse to regret
all my honesty has put me through..

PASSENGER

"Passenger"

this is a plea
to all that want to speak and think freely
extend yourself past what's in front of you
and see it to, there's life beyond these walls,
beyond the screens
((a generation built on apathy))

we swear we'll change the world
we watch it rot, we say we try
i can't stand by
and listen to the lies
i've seen enough
((i've had enough))

i won't be another passenger
i won't be another passenger
i won't be another passenger
i won't be another passenger

let's see it through
too many speak up then bite their tongues
sometimes the truth isn't what they'll want to hear
i say intimidation's run its course
fuck the violence, segregation and it's "cause"

why should i sit back and let fear rule my life?
who are they to dictate what i think, and feel?
the days of accepting, have been and gone
we've gone the wrong way, far too long

i won't be a passenger - the rest of my life

PARALYTIC

"lights and sounds"

you just do it to yourself

innocence, disconnected
will you ever know who you are?
caught in a maze, full of flashing lights
ego trips and dollar signs

submit yourself, to the sound
of a youthful choir going down
to the depths of all they know


it's becoming who you are, never real, torn apart
chase the ideal image, to find no comfort there


chemicals release, endorphins grow
weightlessness, unconsciousness
fever hits, "please, end this trip"
face first, hit the floor
you don't like this anymore
paralytic
everything's a blur
someone's dragging you through the door
lights
sounds
lights
sounds
there's no mistaking what's taken place
something so simple, pushed too far
but it's becoming all we are
an endless sea of wasted youth
too fucking scared to see the truth
what will it take for you to see the truth?

"How Deep? How Far?"

"How Deep? How Far?"

How deep is the hole?
How far do I have to go?
To find some truth,
To find some peace

How far does this tunnel go?
How long do I have to walk?
To reach the end,
To find some peace

But we can never reach the bottom?
Never content with what we find,
So we walk until our feet bleed,
To find some peace

Dig.
Another.
Hole.

In This World

"In This World"

In this world
People die
In this world
People cheat
People hate
People lie
In this world
People strave
In this world
People crave
People steal
People rape
In this world
People kill
In this world

In this world


People
Look
Away

Our Youth Has Been Cut Short By Wallowing In Self Pity

"Our Youth Has Been Cut Short By Wallowing In Self Pity"

I have pondered, considered my mortaility
Attached it to another, but still no reason to live
Searched for excuses for far too long
There are no more, having considered ending it all
And for what achievement? What to gain?
To become a memory that in many will fade
Risk to crush and burden a cherished few
There is no glamour, no glory, no praise
In throwing life and all it holds away
The sooner that is understood, more better off we'll be
Who wants to lean on crutches so heavily?
Why not be proud to stand on your own two feet?
Find your strengths, although you feel weak
Do not take these words as been there's, and done that's
For I have walked both miles, lived both lives
Have come the the conclusion that it's not my time
To give it all away, without saying goodbye
Leaving those around me wondering why
So why glorify heartache? why use it as weight?
For social acceptance, for sympathy's sake
A beacon of light that hides in the dark
Understand it's not how you act, it's the person you are...

The Cage

"The Cage"

Everything has only grown colder,
This bird cannot sing for someone to hold,
So much progress is made just to start again
This time not knowing where to begin

Since that day nothing's ever been the same
The day I opened the cage was the day that my life changed
you took flight so freely, I just stayed here
Too scared to even dream where I might be someday be

One day I'll move on with or with out you, I'm told
But still I remain in this cage, braving the cold
The cold winds only take strength from these wings
With nowhere to go, I don't know where to begin

Day after day I write poems you won't read
Again and again I sing songs you don't hear
There's only one reason I do this, that will not change
For hope you realise why I'm still here, alone in this cage

With hope time heals me from this burden I bare
and that I leave this rusted cage so in need of repair
I know you're never coming back, that much is so clear
It's all I've gained from this cage, this chilling last year

My Stance

"my stance"

we stand alone, on our own two feet
no comparisons, no compromise
who are they to peer through windows
thinking they know what they cannot see
understanding nothing of what we achieve
in our minds, and in our hearts

i choose to keep my distance
from the ones who throw their rocks at glass
because it's not me they could ever break
what's inside of me won't fall apart
they'll do what they will, all they can
but my strength they could never comprehend

the demons fight me, day and night
life deals me the toughest hand of cards
so i shuffle the deck and roll the dice
but know there is no end in sight
to all they say, all they think they know
of the fire that burns inside of me

i will never stand by their side
and i will never look to run and hide
because nothing breaks what lies within
what's beating deep inside this chest
is a promise i made with myself
to recognize and grow my wealth

build your army, fight your war
but nothing will ever rot the core
of why this exists in you and me
a journey of self-discovery
the choice we make is no cross to bare
for i have in me what you wouldn't dare

a humble existence and a focused mind
for i am not the aggressor, swelling with pride
but a gentle soul who has come to see
we all have what helps us to be free
the something inside, the inspired spark
that helps us keep a light in the dark

Dear Universe

"Dear Universe"

Let things come full circle.
I sacrificed and lost it all,
There's never been a greater fall,
Than the one I took for someone's sake
It's not the choice I wanted to make
But I did, now 12 months have passed
and I can still crack and break like glass
Memories so fragile, split piece by piece
What words can tame this lonely beast?

It's the smell of the pillow, taste of the air
The glowing eyes when I woke to her laying there
Hopeless romantics turn to remorseful lovers
With no answers to questions, asked of eachother
And a heart to defend now until the end
For what was once so safe, is frail and scared
To let someone in, to have reason to mend
I know that she's out there, living her life
Dear universe, take me back there so I can make this wrong right.

No Answers

"no answers"

Think of this world,
Look at what it's become.
Think of the wars,
That can never be won.
Think of the ones,
That will never see light.
Think of the souls
Begging for life.

Take steps forward, just to come back

Is all that we see,
All we will know?
Will there ever be clues,
Of when to let go?
Why have none of my questions,
Been answered as yet?
Is this sinking cold feeling,
As good as in gets?

We open up, just to fall apart

For I've put myself out there,
For everyone to see.
But still I'm not a step closer,
To really being free.
I used to love this place,
It meant the world to me.
But who can love this,
And what it's come to be.

Still nothing feels right for me.