The Herd

"the herd"

take me away from this messy place
where everything has become such a disgrace
the lies, the schemes, the evil things
that are willing to take what they can from me

with no morality, no remorse
they'll take for their own, no matter the cost
no matter the means, that meets the end
i see nothing but enemies, there are no friends

the age of distrust, as friends rust
crumble, and rot away becoming nothing but dust
we recycle our souls and it's growing old
who are we meant to be? i will never be told..

this is no short story, there's no happy ending
just chapters of heartbreak and delusions of grander
no hinting our purpose, no fighting our fate
but we do nothing to be sure that this life's great

so sit and stare whilst you just fade away
into the depressing reality of urban decay
raping young minds to disintegrate souls
one generation after another it will take its toll

wrapped in cotton wool with no room to grow
a world at fingertips with no reason to cope
the world's so small that there's nothing to hold
how can we let once strong minds go cold?

precautions, prevention, divine intervention
and too many theories than we could mention
of how it began and when it could end
but with every thought comes another trend

another reason to neglect
and become another sheep
that herds for a shepherd that doesn't exist
and considers this wasteland some kind of a gift

Untitled

"untitled"

work so hard, for yourself, for someone else
but minds change and choose to blame
count your losses, because wins are few
and the greater number gives me something to do
because i write these words, so full of regret
not for a lack of trying, but an overwhelming respect
i've fought my demons, that look just like you
and thought long and hard about what i can do
keep on running or stand to fight
defeat myself, and everything else
in hopes we might see a brighter day
but that day won't come, not today
not ever it seems, for i fight for nothing
there's no reason to have hope and dream
no excuses for draining the life right out of me
although i've learned so much about self-reliance
you're giving me thoughts that are ill-assured
you've known my intentions, my only goal
to look you in the eyes without fear taking hold
you to shared the same hopes and dreams
but now i sit, and count my losses
just so you can sleep and night
and just so i can go through another day
knowing i only tried to do what's right
and kiss every memory i have goodbye
because i see no point, there are no answers
now i know those days you promised me
will never come, and never existed
because once again i've gone through hell
just for the sake of someone else
and you know i'll see another day
but this isn't fair, but it's real
forever consume these lines
and haunt every dream
because you know that timeless phrase
is what will kill me every time
"i hope you understand."

Sit And Wonder

'sit and wonder'

i sit and wonder what's outside these walls
a better life? some kind of future?
something set in stone?
in this room i wade in sand
nothing is stable, nothing to hold

i sit and wonder what's outside these walls
a better life? some kind of future?
something set in stone?
it's always easier to walk away
than stand your ground, make your own way

i sit and wonder what's outside these walls
a better life? some kind of future?
something set in stone?
we spend forever looking for answers
there's so many lessons we have to learn

i sit and wonder what's outside these walls
a better life? some kind of future?
something set in stone?
i'm told stories of 'endless possibility'
but all i know is boundaries

i sit and wonder what's outside these walls
a better life? some kind of future?
something set in stone?
i see what this is, where we're heading
and i want no part of it

i'll never know what's outside these walls
i see no hope, i'm too scared to dream.
what is left for me?
i trust no one, believe in nothing
low is the heart of the modern day teen