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"untitled"

work so hard, for yourself, for someone else
but minds change and choose to blame
count your losses, because wins are few
and the greater number gives me something to do
because i write these words, so full of regret
not for a lack of trying, but an overwhelming respect
i've fought my demons, that look just like you
and thought long and hard about what i can do
keep on running or stand to fight
defeat myself, and everything else
in hopes we might see a brighter day
but that day won't come, not today
not ever it seems, for i fight for nothing
there's no reason to have hope and dream
no excuses for draining the life right out of me
although i've learned so much about self-reliance
you're giving me thoughts that are ill-assured
you've known my intentions, my only goal
to look you in the eyes without fear taking hold
you to shared the same hopes and dreams
but now i sit, and count my losses
just so you can sleep and night
and just so i can go through another day
knowing i only tried to do what's right
and kiss every memory i have goodbye
because i see no point, there are no answers
now i know those days you promised me
will never come, and never existed
because once again i've gone through hell
just for the sake of someone else
and you know i'll see another day
but this isn't fair, but it's real
forever consume these lines
and haunt every dream
because you know that timeless phrase
is what will kill me every time
"i hope you understand."