Weight

"weight."

let me run as fast as i can,
from you, from me, from everything
i want fall and not be caught
think the things i've never thought
do the things i wouldn't do
feel what i've never felt

this day feels like it needs to change
i know nothing can be the same
held down so tightly by other's plans
and so disconnected from helping hands
no one to listen when i scream and shout
there's so much here i'd do without

show me there's hope, in all i know
from here my feelings can only grow
for a desire to learn, but never teach
i've wasted so much time on what i can't keep
give me reason to keep these memories
too long i've taught others but never me

block your ears and close your eyes
what i'm about to say you're not going to like
this place wreaks of empty, wasted lives
i've never met people so contrived
on pathetic rumors, built on lies
say whatever you feel is right

i don't care anymore, i'll watch it burn
every word, on your own terms
it's no longer going to bother me
what i was once proud of, now disgusts me
fuck your word, fuck the rest
i want this weight is off my shoulders, and off my chest