My Stance

"my stance"

we stand alone, on our own two feet
no comparisons, no compromise
who are they to peer through windows
thinking they know what they cannot see
understanding nothing of what we achieve
in our minds, and in our hearts

i choose to keep my distance
from the ones who throw their rocks at glass
because it's not me they could ever break
what's inside of me won't fall apart
they'll do what they will, all they can
but my strength they could never comprehend

the demons fight me, day and night
life deals me the toughest hand of cards
so i shuffle the deck and roll the dice
but know there is no end in sight
to all they say, all they think they know
of the fire that burns inside of me

i will never stand by their side
and i will never look to run and hide
because nothing breaks what lies within
what's beating deep inside this chest
is a promise i made with myself
to recognize and grow my wealth

build your army, fight your war
but nothing will ever rot the core
of why this exists in you and me
a journey of self-discovery
the choice we make is no cross to bare
for i have in me what you wouldn't dare

a humble existence and a focused mind
for i am not the aggressor, swelling with pride
but a gentle soul who has come to see
we all have what helps us to be free
the something inside, the inspired spark
that helps us keep a light in the dark

Dear Universe

"Dear Universe"

Let things come full circle.
I sacrificed and lost it all,
There's never been a greater fall,
Than the one I took for someone's sake
It's not the choice I wanted to make
But I did, now 12 months have passed
and I can still crack and break like glass
Memories so fragile, split piece by piece
What words can tame this lonely beast?

It's the smell of the pillow, taste of the air
The glowing eyes when I woke to her laying there
Hopeless romantics turn to remorseful lovers
With no answers to questions, asked of eachother
And a heart to defend now until the end
For what was once so safe, is frail and scared
To let someone in, to have reason to mend
I know that she's out there, living her life
Dear universe, take me back there so I can make this wrong right.

No Answers

"no answers"

Think of this world,
Look at what it's become.
Think of the wars,
That can never be won.
Think of the ones,
That will never see light.
Think of the souls
Begging for life.

Take steps forward, just to come back

Is all that we see,
All we will know?
Will there ever be clues,
Of when to let go?
Why have none of my questions,
Been answered as yet?
Is this sinking cold feeling,
As good as in gets?

We open up, just to fall apart

For I've put myself out there,
For everyone to see.
But still I'm not a step closer,
To really being free.
I used to love this place,
It meant the world to me.
But who can love this,
And what it's come to be.

Still nothing feels right for me.

Weight

"weight."

let me run as fast as i can,
from you, from me, from everything
i want fall and not be caught
think the things i've never thought
do the things i wouldn't do
feel what i've never felt

this day feels like it needs to change
i know nothing can be the same
held down so tightly by other's plans
and so disconnected from helping hands
no one to listen when i scream and shout
there's so much here i'd do without

show me there's hope, in all i know
from here my feelings can only grow
for a desire to learn, but never teach
i've wasted so much time on what i can't keep
give me reason to keep these memories
too long i've taught others but never me

block your ears and close your eyes
what i'm about to say you're not going to like
this place wreaks of empty, wasted lives
i've never met people so contrived
on pathetic rumors, built on lies
say whatever you feel is right

i don't care anymore, i'll watch it burn
every word, on your own terms
it's no longer going to bother me
what i was once proud of, now disgusts me
fuck your word, fuck the rest
i want this weight is off my shoulders, and off my chest